The internet connection is finally working again.....

Me going back to Msia!!!!
Less than a week now...
Cant wait... XD

May be going in to school tmr for the last time. I know i have to at least go in to bid goodbye to my teachers again. But i feel kinda weird just going in to school like that. The teachers are still having classes. The 6th years are having their pre's next week. Everyone is rushing to finish the course... Haiz... dilemma...

P.s. Thanks for all the birthday wishes... T__T I feel so old suddenly. Final year before going in to my 20's.

You cant stop the birds of sorrow flying over your head, but you can stop them from nesting in your hair =)
17:19

18th of Jan 2010...
It will be the most unforgettable day in Ireland.

I didnt know that saying goodbye will be this tough. And I thought 'sorry' is the hardest word to say... *sorry seems to be.. sorry seems to be the hardest word.....*

Decided to go back to Msia yesterday and so I had to go in to school today to tell my teachers that I'll be going back soon and will not be sitting for my papers...

I was actually hessitating if I should tell them today or someday nearer to my departure... but my dad said since ive made my choice, there's no turning back now.

After the end of the first class ( Music ), I went up to my teacher, Mr Muray, and said that I'll be leaving. I nearly cried! I was having a hard time holding back my tears but i did. Walked to the second class (Chem) but I wasnt able to register a single thing my teacher was saying. I tuned her out totally and started thinking if I'm making the right choice? It shouldnt be this hard to say goodbye if i really wanna get out of this school. I even sms-ed Allan, hoping to get some word of advice but didnt get any reply, i guess he was STILL out of credit. <.<

I kept asking myself the same question until the end of the class. Did the same thing, went up to the teacher, Ms Walsh, but this time before I could say anything I broke down. Paip rosak. She was so shocked and I could only tell her in between sobs... Come to think of it now, her face was really funny. (0.0)"' She said she will talk my vice principal and help me arrange a meeting with a counselor or something. I guess she was too shock to know what to do..

I didnt know how many times Ive cried today....

Went to meet the vice principal, Ms Skeehan. She is a really nice woman. Always give us foreign students 'special treatments'. She can go from giving out on a naughty student to asking how am I doing with my studies along the corridor. She was concerned about what happened that made me make such a decision. Its only 3weeks to my pre's. She was a really nice person to talk with. I didnt even notice that we had our 'meeting' for 1hr 30mins. Chit-chat, coffee, chocolate... Kinder bueno!! >.< She even asked how do I want my coffee to be done... <.<

Ms. : Do you want to go get your lunch??
me : No, I dont feel like eating...
Ms. : No, you must have something. Do you want any coffee or tea then?
me : Sure, coffee please...
Ms. : How do you want your coffee to be made?
me : ????
Ms. : milk? sugar?
me : Oh, yes. Milk and sugar please...
Ms. : How many sugar?
me : *lost* anything...

The same thing happened to the rest of the day. Said the same things to the teachers....
They all say its such a pity. Some of them even said that they were actually looking forward to see me getting an 'A' in my papers. ( Maths- Ms Colly; Biology- Mr O'Meara; Ag. Science- Mr Quinn; Music- Mr Murray). It feels good to know that your teacher thinks that you are capable of scoring an 'A' in their subject...

Feel so relieved now that Ive told them... but at the same time I feel like staying back and complete my paper. Now that so many teachers told me that i'll prolly get an A in their subject... I really feel that it is such a waste of me going off without completing the course... Should I....

Gosh... Evelyn Sia!! Stick to your decisions!!!! Make up your mind!!!!

Students will normally miss their friends when they get outta school. But this time I think I'll miss the teachers more than my classmates... They were all sooooooo kind to me...

I'll still be going in to classes. Just for the fun of it and enjoy the last few days... I hope Im making the right choice and will not regret it in the future... T____T




Note to self: Bring camera to school.... take pics... lots of lots of pics....

You cant stop the birds of sorrow flying over your head, but you can stop them from nesting in your hair =)
12:54

I know its been ages since I last blog. Many things happened here. But I dont really know how to express how or what im feeling now exactly.

Kinda regret coming, but also appreciate the chance of coming here to learn how to live on my own. Reminded me on most of the stupid moral nilai... e.g. berdikari, amanah, kerajinan.... <.<
Life here is really really tough, till I didnt even have the mood to go on9... Felt like im living in a cave. I salute Jie Min. Didnt know how he survive being cave man for such a long period. At least now Ive learned my lesson and Im ready to walk outta the 'cave'.

Many decisions to make. Headache. But thank God. He sent some people to talk to me, helped me figure things out. Was really lost and confused. but after the phone call, and a few MSN chat sessions, Ive made up my mind. At least now I know which path Im gonna take. Thank you mummy, daddy, auntie Vivien and Ms Beh... ^.^

Planning on going back to Msia soon... Pick up some Music courses. Prolly have to take up some foundation level courses first. All has yet to be confirm. Hopefully everything will turn out fine. Praying really hard...

Next target: learn how to play the violin. >.<

Was blog-hopping. Found this is alex's blog. Did one myself. Accurate?
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You cant stop the birds of sorrow flying over your head, but you can stop them from nesting in your hair =)
19:54

I gave up reading the non-stop mail... <.<

Last week I got my day off the same day as Vincent and he took me out for dinner. It was awesome but i felt the need to go for a walk. So we went for a long walk and we pass by this farm and there were some horse/cow ( I said it was a cow but vince said its a horse) and some sheeps... We were walking walking talking talking laughing laughing and then i went meeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhh ( immitating the sheep lar) it was really quiet. then suddenly one of the sheep went meeeeeeeeeeeehhhh super loud. My bro and I were both shock and started laughing.(shows that im good at immitating) THen he told me to try again. Same result. super funny. I kept trying even when the farm is out of sight( we din stop walking lar) And the sheep still answers. Super cute. Im gonna try it again the next time. FYI, im not very close to Vince in Msia. I think being here we know that we have to rely on each other and that sort of bonded us. It felt weird but nice. XD

Allan got gotcha-ed... Wonder if dad heard it on the radio?? hmmmmmmmm.....

Was tagged by sz in the S6 class party as a bowl. Empty bowl... <.<

You cant stop the birds of sorrow flying over your head, but you can stop them from nesting in your hair =)
12:14

Hmmm.. I know its been a long time since my last post. Im sorry.

Well, guess what. Im now here in Ireland more than half a year now. Its amazing how time flies. Now that Allan is in KT, I guess my parents missed us even more. The house must also be super duper uber quiet to them. We arent there to shout at the top of our lungs to get things accross the house anymore.

Im now on summer holiday school break. BUT, summer here isnt really summer summer as in all SUNNY. Its just mean you can now go out without your jacket, can stay out for a long time.

Nothing much to do. Sleep. Eat. Work. Bangsai. haiz. All these unproductive lifestyle have only helped me in gaining weight. Its either I go shopping or go on a diet. Need to go on a diet... <.<

Currently entertaining myself with movies and drama series. oh, and I've started on this Freecell mania. Playing from game num. 1 then 2 and so on. I wanna see how far I can go. So far already on game 176. I did this once years ago and i reach 400++ XD

Im going to miss another class party. AGAIN. T_______T . Why ohh why did I come here in the first place? Gah. Im not going to torture myself by answering that question.

I also found out that most of my friends can now drive. T_T I doubt that I'll be taking driving lessons here. And i dont feel like learning how to drive on my own when i go back to Msia. Am I not able to learn how to drive for the rest of my life? OMG... At the same time I cant imagine myself behind wheels. Dangerous. I dont think I'll be a good driver. XP

Future. What to study next? Ive tried asking myself that ques quite a number of times now. I still cant come out with a solid answer. It keeps changing. It changes with the things im exposed to. For example I watched this movie about being a vet then i feel like being one. Then I read this magazine with all the bedroom settings n stuff i felt like studying interior design. But i know im not the kind of person that can do design. I might design everything in purple. So far im convinced by myself that i wanna be a pastry chef. I'll see if it will change again.. I hope not. Im kinda tired of thinking it over and over again. Its so sickening that sometimes i just feel like i wont continue studying and just work. (which I know its impossible...Dont worry mum.)

I just read a blog post that had me in tears. Its so dramatic that its so hard to believe that its real. I shall ask for her permission before I say anything else. Ms. vonnu, can i put up the link you gave me. Its just so touching that i feel like sharing it. I really reminded me to cherish what I have now.

Anyway, I got to go now. Library is closing soon. ( I cant go online back where I stay so I have to come to the library whenever I wanna go online. This also explains why im not online most of the time.) Being able to come online really cheered me up. Being able to chat with my friends and read the crazy emails they've sent me make my day.

Miss you all dearly...
Hugz and kisses to all of you.

You cant stop the birds of sorrow flying over your head, but you can stop them from nesting in your hair =)
11:23

I dont wanna get injection..

You cant stop the birds of sorrow flying over your head, but you can stop them from nesting in your hair =)
05:38

Happy Birthday DEBORAH!!!!!!!!

Happy happy joy joy!!

Dont go around bitting people ya? haha.

All the best.. Miss you. XD

You cant stop the birds of sorrow flying over your head, but you can stop them from nesting in your hair =)
05:36